Time has taught me something very valuable, something that I should have been aware since the very beginning. That I was just a fragile soul, easily influenced by the opinions and perspectives of the society. That I am prone to please and be pleased easily.
Yesterday's night out was a wake up call to all the questions that have been lingering in my mind. One of my friends has decided to ber-'hijrah'. I'm not going to say bertudung but more towards covering your aurah. Because only bertudung and covering aurah memang dua perkara yang berbeza sangat. Kamu mungkin bertudung tapi tidak menutup aurat sepenuhnya.
So she said to me, macam mana tiba-tiba dia terbuka pintu hati nak berhijrah. She was so touched knowing that all her best friends, selama ini mendoakan and always, always reminded her what is the best for her, what should she do and how to attain a peaceful way of life. Dalam kata lain, mereka selalu berdakwah pada dia. And she said, she was so grateful to have such friends in her life, the ones who know what's best for her and membimbing dia ke arah kebaikan rather than well, ignoring it?
I was stunned as well. Because, there was I, sitting in front of her listening to every word she uttered, and it got me thinking, I am one of her best friends as well, we have been friends for like 10 years approximately? But have I ever done the same thing like what her new best friends did all this while? I tried to recall my past but to no avail and I didn't get the answer as I was not sure myself.
But of course I am happy for her as she has found friends who helped her to change for a better self. And it got me thinking for the whole day. Aku sumpah sayang kawan-kawan aku. Because I know, I am jahil, taklah baik pun, banyak kelemahan and sometimes I am not sure myself what do I want in my life.
When I was younger, I was influenced to do things which I know are ultimately wrong. Sebab sebenarnya, culture shock. I was practically skema and such a nerd. So bila dapat kawan cool I was called to do cool things which I assumed were cool when well they were obviously not.
Fast forward to the present, I am a happy person. Much happier than I was. Yang paling sweet, kawan-kawan yang dulu sama-sama jahiliah pun berubah sekali. In fact, they are much better than me. Jadi, don't look down to those who you claim tak alim lah rosaklah, because once they change, they can even be better Muslim than you are.
It is indeed true that you become like the people you spend the most time with. So you have to choose carefully. I am thankful for the friends that I have, that have taught me many things and guided me to be a better person. Those who have often reminded me, jangan lupa sembahyang. Yang ingatkan how I used to wear tight clothes and please throw away all my tight clothes. Yang ingatkan how I should be diligent with the words I choose when I speak. Yang ingatkan one should always be grateful, humble and cautious. Yang ingatkan every single thing sebab lumrah manusia isn't it? We all need reminders. Sebab truthfully, iman pun tak kuat. Senipis kulit bawang saja.
Tapi, paling tak boleh blah. Masa dinner dulu, I wanted to look nice. So I thought I'd like to get a facial treatment and eventually have my brows threaded. Sebab there was this time dulu aku rasa kening yang dibentuk sangat cantik so I got them done, and aku rasa aku cantiklah padahal tak cantik pun. Takde beza pun sebenarnya. So I wanna do it again sebab dah lama tak buat. And my male best friend. YES MALE EH. MALE. Dia pi cakap, "Tak payahlah, apa bendalah kau ni. Dah lah berdosa lepastu nak dapat dosa free-free sebab tu je. Kita ni bukannya banyak pahala, so apa yang boleh diavoid tu, avoid lah,"
Bergenang mataku. You know who you are. Part yang "Kita ni bukannya banyak pahala, so apa yang boleh diavoid tu, avoid lah," tu memang terngiang-ngiang tiap kali aku hampir nak buat jahat. Thank you friend.
But yes of course, it's not like kau kena harapkan kawan kau saja untuk make you a better person. You yourself have to be strong inside. Janganlah blame orang untuk benda yang kau sendiri buat. And if you love your friends too, do what a good friend is supposed to do rather than lihat and ignore.
January 25, 2013
January 22, 2013
I'm done with my degree!!! Tak tahu nak happy ke tak. Happy sebab berjaya menghadap 4.5 tahun menamatkan perjalanan degree. Takut nak happy sebab cuti tak sampai sebulan lepastu masuk LLb setahun which they constitute to hell hell bee. Hik hik hik.
Dulu pernah dengar cerita pasal LLb. Ada beberapa students yang dah habis degree taknak sambung LLb sebab takut. Lepastu Madam cakap, "Lah kenapa takut nak masuk LLb?"
Kata mereka, "Sebab dorang kata macam neraka,"
Madam jawab, "Okaylah tu at least ada persiapan nak pergi neraka nanti."
Kau mampuuuu. Epic madam is epic. Takpelah itu belakang cerita, yang penting aku dah habis exam dan kalau dapat offer LLb mestilah nak masuk wohh. In sya Allah.
Yang paling, paling, paling sedih ialah bila dah habis paper terakhir tu, semua orang jerit satu dewan pastu peluk-memeluk. Yang pasti takde siapa lari bogel. Sedihnya nak pisah dengan kawan-kawan. Kawan puji, kawan maki, kawan suka, kawan duka. Tidur sebantal, makan sepinggan, share baju seluar singlet. SEDIH SEDIH SEDIH.
Best class ever.
ACAH ACAH SANGAT
Oh I'm so going to miss those BLS years and of course, my memorable foundation moments.
Ahh what better way to celebrate this freedom than having a fantastic luncheon + advanced birthday cake sebab kita takde bulan Februari ini?
Permulaan tahun 2013 sangat baik-baik sekali. Kakak aku selamat diijabkabulkan, aku habis degree, tahun LLb bermula (insyallah), and I'm getting a new niece/nephew (MESTILAH NAK DOH). Dan whatever events to come, tak tahu. Tapi yang pasti, I'm turning 23, like beberapa hari lagi je and I'm getting the best present ever. Kita tunggu dan lihat hihihiks.
Here are some of my sister's wedding photos.
HAHAHA SIBUK JE GEMUK NI.
I gotta thank everyone who came to the wedding. Especially to all my friends who came. Tapi yang ini + lagi 2 orang tak sempat ambil gambar, terima kasih double triple sebab diorang jadi emcee, runner, penyambut tamu, penjaga guest book + presents. Nasib baik ada korang :')
And penjaga table hadiah as well. Yang ini, siap tolong jahitkan manik dekat jubah ibu pengantin perempuan k. Cantik sangat. Thanks Shepah.
Tengoklah mekap sendiri, apa nih. Nangis tau tengok eyeliner putih persis tahi mata kat bawah tu.
Pengapit yang hmmm, takpelah.
Tapi yang paling penting, sebab tauke Get Bedazzled kan, jadi kasut pengantin pun buat sendiri. Okay sesiapa nak tempah bolehlah :3
Maaflah dengan kualiti gambar yang sadistik. Semua hasil nukilan handphone cabuk yours truly jadi kualiti pun cabuk macam yours truly. Kkkkkk.